soooo close… just have an essay stopping me.
so, ezekiel 16:6-22 reads this. so good.
6 “And when I passed by you and saw you wallowing in your blood, I said to you in your blood, ‘Live!’ I said to you in your blood, ‘Live!’ 7 I made you flourish like a plant of the field. And you grew up and became tall and arrived at full adornment. Your breasts were formed, and your hair had grown; yet you were naked and bare.
8 “When I passed by you again and saw you, behold, you were at the age for love, and I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness; I made my vow to you and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Lord God, and you became mine.9 Then I bathed you with water and washed off your blood from you and anointed you with oil. 10 I clothed you also with embroidered cloth and shod you with fine leather. I wrapped you in fine linen and covered you with silk. 11 And I adorned you with ornaments and put bracelets on your wrists and a chain on your neck. 12 And I put a ring on your nose and earrings in your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. 13 Thus you were adorned with gold and silver, and your clothing was of fine linen and silk and embroidered cloth. You ate fine flour and honey and oil. You grew exceedingly beautiful and advanced to royalty. 14 And your renown went forth among the nations because of your beauty, for it was perfect through the splendor that I had bestowed on you, declares the Lord God.
15 “But you trusted in your beauty and played the whore because of your renown and lavished your whorings on any passerby; your beauty became his. 16 You took some of your garments and made for yourself colorful shrines, and on them played the whore. The like has never been, nor ever shall be. 17 You also took your beautiful jewels of my gold and of my silver, which I had given you, and made for yourself images of men, and with them played the whore. 18 And you took your embroidered garments to cover them, and set my oil and my incense before them. 19 Also my bread that I gave you—I fed you with fine flour and oil and honey—you set before them for a pleasing aroma; and so it was, declares the Lord God. 20 And you took your sons and your daughters, whom you had borne to me, and these you sacrificed to them to be devoured. Were your whorings so small a matter 21 that you slaughtered my children and delivered them up as an offering by fire to them? 22 And in all your abominations and your whorings you did not remember the days of your youth, when you were naked and bare, wallowing in your blood.
when we were dead in our blood, spiritually wallowing in hopelessness, the Lord commanded into our deadness to “LIVE”, and even our dead blood obeyed the commandment of the Lord. who is He that speaks life out of lifelessness? and who are we that He is mindful of whether or not we live??
God demonstrated love by dying on the cross while we were in our most abjectly sinful state. He washed our beings free of filth and soil. He took us in and clothes us with robes of righteousness. He calls us now His sons and daughters. daaaaang, come on somebody!!
but verse 15 says “But you trusted in your beauty…”. wow, like, really? still? still, we rebel against the Lord? still we whore ourselves to different lovers? still we fail to treasure and contend for our relationship with our Abba Father?… who has already purchased us by the work done on the cross? the passage ends by saying ‘we did not remember the days of our youth, when we were naked and bare, wallowing in our dead blood.’ and that’s one of the few things it comes down to. we choose to forget our most foundational dependence on the Lord. and instead, we trust in our own beauty. but when the Lord comes to shake the earth again (hebrews 12:26-27), we will much sooner than later realize how shakable and unreliable our idols are.
Oh Lord, give me a love for You that defends my relationship with You!! a fear of You that stirs up a relentless clinging to You!!
a lot of people say they try to make God #1 in their life… i.e. their first priority on the list. while i love the heart behind that, i pray that for me, God would not only be #1, but that there wouldn’t even be such thing as a #2 or #3 for me to fall back on. give me Jesus, or don’t give me anything.
Lord, i cry out for you.
"One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in his temple.” - Psalm 27:4
maybe it’s cuz earphones stuff my head with this sensation of subtle but annoying pressure. or cuz the quality of my earphones suck, producing this scratchy, metallic version of whatever song i’m listening to… but lately i’ve noticed that i prefer going earphone-less. no constant internal hum. no unnecessary pressure built up in my ear. just letting my ear experience the atmosphere as it should, with all the external hums and sounds and breezes that it was meant to know.
"Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and you will delight in the richest of fare.”
- isaiah 55:1-2
Lord, we’re truly thirsty for you.